Wednesday, September 5, 2012

pet problems, dog sick, cat broke leg ETC.

Unbelievable but when I read Google's top ten links for any pet injury or illness, it's as if nobody thinks anyone has a bit of common sense.  the internet is suppose to help, not insult your intelligence,
  Example.A person has dog they found or adopted. and this dog has a lump, coughs, walks on three legs....whatever! and like most people, sure they love the dog, but they themselves are on economic hard times. So you do a search.................
  Every "Genius" out there suggests, "Bring it to a Vet IMMEDIATELY". Gee's why didn't I think of that? Of course we did, we even probably called around, till they found out going to the Vet cost more than going to the Doctor, (And we don't even go to the Doctor for ourselves!) So, how in hell are we going to go to a vet? I mean it's common sense, realistically, everyone would go to the vet first chance they got, if it were anything like even 25yrs ago, Now veterinary medicine is BIG BUSINESS, with fancy buildings, and staff of neatly dressed receptionists, and people that have nothing to do with animals, just collecting past due bills! Look in the parking lot..Lexus, Mercedes, Range Rovers?
  Of course you tell the Receptionist, "I don't really have much money, but can you please look at my pet?"
   Then the vet, (usually the receptionist), tells you about "Care Credit". Woah Hoo. all my problems are over. Look at the terms on that beauty! Over 24%, Modern day loan sharks...all because you found a little dog and your daughter wants to keep it!
What's wrong with that?
   There were a few Vets offering advice on-line, for any monetary donation you could afford. Some free. Wouldn't you know Texas Veterinary board shut them right down! Some even received fines. For what? doing what they loved, and giving away that precious commodity, "Advice".
Ya, it's true, look it up. So you will not find any info of value on-line. You might. LOL. And those of you that do afford Vet services, God Bless you. I am not faulting you at all. I am glad you can almost afford it. But look at what you actually received for that bill.    Advice, for the most part. and maybe a free nail trim.
   So, if you have a pet that's sick or injured, and you think you might get some advice from the internet, remember, those people that are allowed to give advice, are going to tell you what you already know, Go to a vet. If you're expecting someone that knows a little something about it. Be sure to know, There is someone else out there that will muzzle them.
  best advice I ever heard or could give, is walk right in and sit right down. Give what you can and sign nothing. If you even get to see the Doctor, (And you probably won't)but if you do, You can tell a lot just by his/her expression. And you Vet's that might per chance read this. I know you got bills, but a little charity goes a long way. You started this getting unpaid crap when you jacked your prices up sky high. I been dealing with Vets for 50 yrs (plus) and paid every bill on time, till they became ridiculous, make an appointment???  Office fees ??? $50.  Plus what the vet charges for diagnosis. We all knew it was over when conglomerates and franchises took over. Fast food vet services.
 what's next? Drive thru?

Sunday, September 2, 2012

Sept Grants for disabled

First day of September!
That is great! another year to award some deserving disabled athletes
a chance at receiving equipment and/or training!
Only sadness is now with my age creeping in, I would not be able
to use a nice hand-cycle I tried so many years to get a grant for.

I do have one.
but it's old....and too dangerous for anyone to ride really.
It has the type of brakes and shifters you have to let go of
a hand pedals to use. Not safe.

I crashed a few times during panic stops...taking one
hand off one pedal, and trying to stop without going into
on-coming traffic or down a ditch (Which is what usually happened)

Of course being a high level double amputee, made balancing with one hand
IMPOSSIBLE!!!

Just a pleasure ride had me holding on for dear life.

If I could make one suggestion, make the application process
somewhat easier....I don't know how easy it can be made,
but that was my downfall every year.
I think the first year I tried it was eight pages long.
My life, living alone has enough daily challenges.
It was never a lack of wanting to get it done, it just seldom did,
and when it did...
it was always too late!

Good luck this year. I am sure some lucky disabled athletes will
have the family and support needed to get a "Perfect" application in on time
If, they haven't already!!!

THAT is a professional disabled person.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Pai, Pain go away.

  Good morning, I hope. (Not for me)
I am up, I been up since 3am with a stupid sharp pain stabbing in my middle toe on the left foot.

It's aggravating at the least and makes my let out a little hoot. I tried to just sleep it off.

Not get up. just roll over because I am so tired, but that only worked for about two hours, then I had to get up.

I had to eat a bowl of cereal because I do not like to take any medication on an empty stomach.

I did just take a Perc and a 8mg Dilliudid. I am still waiting for them to give me enough relief to

go back to bed. I feels like it might be starting to work, but it usually takes almost an hour

for the dilliudid to do anything. I wish there was a quick fix for the pain, so I could just keep it by my bed

side.

Right.


   During this pain shit I deal with everyday.

Oh yeah, everyday. I don't know when it will come, how intense it will be, how long it will last.

I know nothing about it.....except it will be here at some point today.

 Everyday.

I think part
the worse of being disabled is to not be able to have a schedule, or promise to
 be anywhere on time. If I could wake up at the same time everyday, or go to bed the same time, I KNOW

life would be so much better. It's a mental torture to some degree to be awaken or

have to go to bed at different times of day, because of situations beyond your control.

ie: medication side effects, pain, waiting for meds to help, exhaustion from pain,

and even just sitting for prolonged periods of time. it all effects parts of your day, or night.

Imagine being woke with a sharp stab to your body!

 that does not end when you open youir eyes. It is NOT a dream.

In fact it doesn't end for hours in some cases, and only lasts a brief
hour in others.

Well, I haven't had a stab or electrical shock feeling in my toes in about a paragraph,

so what time is it now? Must be about 6am, and I have a stupid busy Monday waiting for me.

I have to go back to bed. I like to get about 4 hrs of sleep if possible, except I have a

very important phone call I must make at around 9. I am so F/N tired.


So, I am late? what can they do to me?

Cut off my legs?


Talk to you Later.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Well, I have been busy with a little airbrush working, and paying bills, trying to fix the car. I had this thing about fake friends I wanted to go off on, I am really pissed off about these so-called friends that while you have money. or something they need from you , your time, your home, food whatever, they are their, but once you say, "Enough is enough" they geta ll pissed off at you and blame you for all their personal problems. I know too many people that think their life stinks and a few that threaten to want to kill themselves, What am I suppose to do about that?
I need to write it all out and see how many people relate. millions I'm sure!

Friday, April 20, 2012

What have you done for me? Today?

Seems some people really suck.
   I noticed it is mainly people who tell you, "I'm good people". Why would they feel the need to do that? Unless there was a question of whether they were or weren't in there own mind. Then there's the people that tell you, "As soon as I get on my feet, I'm going to pay you back". Now why would they even say that? If they really meant it, wouldn't they just do it? But my favorite is the, friend, significant other, boss, co-worker, that gets all pissed off at you when you don't do something they want you to do on that day they want you too, because for the past two weeks you been doing things to help them out, or for "Free", But can't anymore because you either feel as if they are taking advantage of you, or you simply can't afford to help them out any more than you have. Here's an example: A guy tips you for a whole year...Then one day, ONE DAY. he doesn't.
What an asshole! Right? Not thanks for all the other tips.
 you can almost see it coming. when they tell you how they are gong to get so-and-so back, or spit in someones coffee. Or move out in the middle of the night tearing up the apartment they own six months back rent on. The landlord just gave them a notice to evict. That asshole! Just remember, next week. It could be YOU they are pissed at. Because, you didn't tip them that one day, Or you're just sick of them taking advantage of you.
 enjoy your cup of piss. and don't do anything for anyone, lest they expect it every day!

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Headlight problems resolved!!!


Getting very few actually finished.
every time I think I am caught up or closing in
something new happens that takes my full
attention.
what really hurts is having to have other people do most of the work for me.

EX: the other day I wanted to aim the headlights on my convertible.
we, (Me and another) took it all apart, painted the buckets, reassembled it all with new hardware
and all the sudden the lights didn't fit properly.
Hmm, that must be the problem my buddy say's.
I encourage him to re-access everything, but he's sure there's a problem.
Problem was there are inside and outside headlight buckets.
AND a left set and a right set!!!
four buckets for four bulbs. all each have their own place to be.
Took another "Helper" (One that listens) to follow my instructions.
pull it all apart again!!! and do it correctly.
Should be OK...if it ever gets nice enough out I can
take the convertible out for a ride!!!
two days to do four hours work.....Disability is a lot more than most realize.
it encompasses your entire life.

so next I need to fit a bigger carb and new exhaust
on my project three wheel gas powered 125cc
handicap trike. I just re-geared it so it should break 65mph this year!
lot's of assembly left however. I had it down to the piston and the
bike down to the frame. full restoration.
but that's what winter is for.

good luck with all you have to do.

I am still looking for a class A RV for a reasonable price.
Prefer a 70's thru mid 80's Winni. or the like.
if you see a running good deal let me know, OK?

Thanks,

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

4651 vs 5051 headlights

Hello, I  seen a lot of cars, dealt with a ton of issues, BUT never seen this. I got an 86 LeBaron, the headlights are pointing all over the place.No problem, right? I take it all apart, and the little glass lugs on the back of the bulb, where it sits in the headlight basket, are on the wrong side! Look at them.There are four lugs on the back, three small ones, and one fatter one, that fat one fits in one corner on the top. I don't have it in front of me, but I think the bucket on mine was on the top right side (As your facing the cars nose)But the fat lug on the bulb is on the left top side!! (I could just smash it down, but rather understand why it is)
all the manufactures say the the 5051 can be changed out with a 4651. seems to me, I am the only person in the world whose ever seen this, nobody I spoke with is even aware there are different size lugs on the back of a bulb. Neither was I two weeks ago. SO, I wish to replace these headlights with something a lot brighter. Perhaps, HID? at least H4 for now,
 second issue is, everyone selling "Conversion kits" does not understand that I do not need four of the same lights! I need two HI beams, and two HI/LO beams. Is it that difficult to understand? So, bottom line, I want to buy four lights for the LeBaron, But need two sets...that fit MY HOUSINGS, (Fat lug on top right, not left) and contain different bulbs for the HI and LO settings. Easy Breezy, Thanks for trying to understand this. IF I have the wrong Buckets, or the wrong BULBS, somebody please let me know. I am thinking the 5051 bulb has lugs on the top right. LOL?


OK, NOW I understand. I should had posted the ASAP, Whatever you do, don't ever have someone else start a job you will have to finish.
What "Somebody" did was took out all the headlight buckets and repainted them, and since they all look the same, they did not pay any attention to the left, right, outer or inner bucket. So, naturally when you buy a sanders replacement bulb it will only fit in the original bucket...no matter where it's been installed!
So, armed with this knowledge, you could install all Hi-Lo buckets across the grill and have four lo beams, and four Hi beams.  But why would you so that?
  Manufactures may not label the buckets for re-installation, but it's easy enough to figure it all out once you pull it all apart.
   
    You will find previos owners doing all kinds of mind numbing alterations to their vehicles without themselves ever knowing it! Then you get to figure it out, good luck.

Friday, February 24, 2012

Dentist with a Heart, part 3

Well, we all fear the Dentist.
 I guess I always did. Thankfully thru the NH Dentist with a Heart Program I managed to have 6 teeth fixed!, and one extracted : (.... Three visits, all in all, I would say was a success story. I met some great dentists in New Hampshire, and one not so great. I would have to say going to the dentist has changed in the past 10 years. (Since my last terrible experience) and the pain is nowhere near what it used to be like. When I had to go see a dentist, I would have a thousand reasons not to go "That day". It was the pain. Although this time  I did not get to have nitrous oxide, or sleep dentistry, the pain was not that bad.
    I personally think the Dentist with a Heart program is a great way for dentist's to get new patients and old patients to come in and see what modern dentistry is all about. When a person is introduced to that "correct" dentist, the one who treats them really well, they will in return get a new patient, and more importantly positive word-of-mouth advertising. I know exactly where I will go back to, and where I will not go back to. It is just unfortunate that as in many things we have to learn through our mistakes. One bad dentists experience should not keep you from going back. They are not all the same. and if I were a Dentist, and I KNEW I was good...I would definitely volunteer one day out of the year to treat those who have limited funds, or at least like many, can find a lot better ways to spend their money. If a person feels as if they got treated well and relieved a decent service, the price can be acceptable. For me it was a lot of money for PAIN. And now that I am disabled and can't afford a dentist, it was a generous, appreciated gift.
  I couldn't say, "Thank you" enough.
   Remember, "Be true to your teeth, or they'll be FALSE to you".

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Dentist with a Heart, part 2 the happy ending.

Well, Guess What?

  I received a call from that dentist office that I went to, and got shoved to the back,
By not the office, but by the inconsiderate folks that were there waiting to be seen.

It was a good call, they were very understanding and apologetic, and couldn't believe that happened.
They couldn't believe everyone didn't think to ask if I got on the "To be seen next" list.

Bottom line, they offered me a one-time courtesy to be seen there for the cavity that the filling fell out of.
I couldn't believe it, but I am so grateful.
It goes to show as I have said before , "People are not mind readers" you really need to communicate in a
polite way, and don't be afraid to ask for what you need."
They honestly don't know what you want,
 and I find sometimes, what you are hoping for is far less than they are willing to give.

EX: I was stuck in my van, the lift would not deploy on the snow, making getting out of the van impossible.
An old man came over, and helped me. He worked very hard pushing on the lift and wheelchair, till I was safe inside!
I didn't have the heart to tell him, "I was trying to get out".
Once,
I was at a dept store, checking out at the register, I seen a well dressed man looking at me! guarding the door. I thought, "Gee's this guy must be thinking I am a shop lifter". It wasn't till I approached the door that I realized he was standing there waiting, just to assist me by holding the door when I left.
   See, there are some decent people out there, and this Dentist office, once they learned the facts, turned out to be pretty understanding, and all I was hoping for was an apology!

That doesn't mean every person in wheelchair needs or even wants help. I didn't at first, and I wanted to be independent. But I learned by not allowing someone to assist me is also hurting by robbing them of wanting to be a helpful and decent person. So even if I am all set, I will gladly accept any help offered.

Communication is............, AAAh, Uh, Um, ahh, kinda, sort-a, umm.
I think you know what I'm saying.


 Good talking with you all
I just thought you would like to know,
                                       
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Saturday, February 4, 2012

Dentist With A Heart Program NH Feb 2012

Hello,
here's what I did today!


February 2012,
the state of New Hampshire kicks off  dentists with a heart program here
in NH.             
         I called towards the end of January to see if I could make an appointment.
The pleasant voice on the phone told me to callback the the beginning of February.
the list was not made yet.
I called February 1st and was told the list was full now. but there were some walk-in clinics.
two, to be precise. none in my local area.
I called the various dentist's office's to see what time the clinics would be open.
I was told February 4th from 8-4. I then asked what time does the crowd show up?
the pleasant voice on the other end of the line told me people got there as early as 5:30 AM!

5:30 AM! hey I am disabled, and I can't get out out of bed that early. I then began to explain
to the receptionist Sue, that I was in a wheelchair and been to situations like this.
I explained people were mean and rude, they will cut you off and jump line, like old women at a bargain table
at Filene's! Just to get "Theirs" regardless of who they were hurting
 I told her the wheelchair is usually the last person they bring in the building.
that said
I never get to take advantage of anyone's generosity. Sue, then told me SHE should be there eight a.m.
and would see that would not happen.
the day of that this with a heart program, I awoke at 4 AM. it took me till 5:30 to get out of the house.
I then drove over an hour to North Hampton. I arrived at the dentist's office at 6:35am and to my surprise
there were five people already there. I called over to one person and asked if he could help me with my wheelchair.
he told me it's too cold stay in the car. 20 minutes past and more people came, I called over to another person.
I asked, "could you help me with my wheelchair". that person also said it was too cold, and to stay in the car.
but, he said he would come get me as soon as the doors opened.
  with*am rolled around, and just ask she said, SUE was there. I introduced myself and told her
I made it on time!
by that time there was over 20 people in line. just as SUE said, she opened the doors at 8 AM. the crowd piled in.
Finally, someone did come outside to assist me with the wheelchair. Remember I was there 5th because I woke at 4am and drove over an hour
to be sure I was seen.
the rear of the building is where the wheelchair ramp was located. Eventually it was opened and
the gentleman helped me from  up the ramp into the building. everyone had clipboards in the hands. the receptionist
asked if I needed a clipboard. she handed me a C/B with a form to fill out. shortly thereafter she came out with another clipboard
and handed it to a group of new arrivals approximately 8:30 AM.  When she turned around she took my clipboard and passed me the other clipboard.  That clipboard was the sign-in sheet. (I got it at 830am)
I waited in the waiting room patiently, and hour rolled by, and after an hour and several paople in and out
the gentleman who was first in line asked,

"how come he had not been seen yet", HE was first? the receptionist explained, there were three dentists, and one
dental hygienist. (he still should have been first). 20 minutes later he was seen into the office. 10am
two hours have passed, and I wanted to see how my dog was in the car. I asked if somebody could help me out of the building.
a woman said she would help. As we worked our way thru the narrow hallways with the wheelchair, I asked where I was on the list.
I was told there were 8 more people before me on the list I was on.
everybody that was before me was seen and left! a half a dozen others that came after me, were seen and leaving!.
and she tells me I won't be seen till after 12. In fact, "Come back after lunch!"
I've been up since 4 AM and my pain medication was wearing off and I was told I would hafta wait another
two more hours before being seen?

Sue told me this would not happen, this woman's telling me there is nothing she can do about it.
I had no choice but to drive over an hour home for more medication. I laid down to rest my back for a few minutes,
and pasted out for 2 1/2 hours. I was exhausted!

what happened? did the receptionist walk into the room, and just hand the clipboard to whoever she felt like?
did she even think to ask, "OK, who was here first?" She should be fired, or at the very least reprimanded.
what about the guy that was they before me (at 6:30 AM?)  And what of all those people that showed up at 8:30 AM,
Who Where handed the clipboard as they walked in the door? while I'm still being pushed into the building?

needless to say, I am very hurt by this experience.
She at the very least should have apologized to me, and seen if I could had been seen sooner.
   Not, "There's nothing I can do about it" BS
(A very few places actually see a wheelchair person before the crowd....not in the last four years though)
I have a filling that fell out, The pain is unbearable and I cannot afford to see a dentist.
I'd like to say I didn't expect this to happen. I called to be sure it wouldn't.
I was told "It wouldn't" but it did...again.
 It's happened before, it will happen again.
dentists with a heart,? how about, receptionist with no brain.!
a few people were very hurt by by her actions today, but the sneaky ones were pleased.
do you think they didn't know they were jumping the line?
do you think for a moment they thought these people here before me?
sure they did,
the old man, the two elderly women, and the man in the wheelchair
were at the end of the list.
Thank you Doctors that volunteer your time.
Shame on you receptionist that could have done a better job
if you cared.

Now, who cares?
what can I do about this injustice that happens to so many every day?
a feeling of helplessness. soon to be replaced by a feeling of hopelessness
if history follows thru as it has with other disabled persons.
nobody starts out hopeless

(could be the abscess talking)

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Justice or Just us ?

what do they mean by Justice? I am involved with a tenant landlord dispute. the landlord has hired a lawyer and the lawyer has manipulated the system, for lack of a better word, to help the landlord evict a tenant. the tenant a 75-year-old woman has no law degree.  So this is very easy for the lawyer.  I just want to get up in court and scream.  I am sure if I am witnessing this one injustice, that they has to be countless others.
I am absolutely sick to death with what I witness going on in this country.  Then forced to think, it must be happening in other countries also. so what do we do?
I sometimes wonder what I see an elderly angry person why they are so angry.  Now as I get older I am getting angrier also.  It is small wonder why so many are depressed, on drugs, alcoholics or suicidal.  I am not that far yet.  But I am so young.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Beggerman, Theif?

Dog info
Ifound alink for an ultra sound clinic
but it has it's hoops and rings to jump thru
but still.
let be thankful
 for the ultra sound clinic info.
 I have not heard back from them yet.
I found a vet
 that will help me financially with possibly treating Tisha's CHF,
but he says all he needs is one x-ray
to see her heart
how big it is, and the shadow around it.
the draining,
 as long as I know is not going to save her life,
and understand she could go into shock and die.
maybe even sooner if she is a candidate for fluid drainage.
 if that is better than to see her trying to catch hr breath all day
 and coughing, he will help her and not hurt her.
 and charge me all I can afford

so, my question is can you do one x-ray for me please?
how much  would that cost me  please.?

I am sorry to have to keep bothering you about MY problems.
I have a simple life and my dog is the most important thing in my life
how sad is that?   She is with me all day, everyday
right by my wheelchair, she comforts me and makes me have to get out of bed
to feed her and take her outside.
I don't know what will happen when she is gone.

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Bill and Jill, I spend all day trying to find a clinic or affordable care for myself and my dog. More doors are shut than even opened a crack. THIS is what happens when you cannot go to work anymore. My Teeth, my Pets, my family all suffer...not just me.In the past  I would just work over time or get a second job for anything I needed, even for luxuries I WANTED  in the past. and there was nothing I couldn't have if I wanted it.
now I can't even have, non-luxuries. I really believed workmens comp when they told me I would be afforded anything I could not do directly due to, or because of, my disablity. I also was told I would receive a settlement once I was ,
"Medically cleared". That was continuously postponed every time I asked about it.
Hey, can I work over time this week? I really could use the money. I was always better at earning money than I ever was at begging.

CONFIDENTIALITY NOTICE: Disregard this correspondence since it has nothing to do with anything you are obligated to help me with.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

To kill or let die

Hello.
I have a sick dog.
A 13 yr old Schiperkke named T*****.
She is absolutly the love of my life. She is also a service dog.
Now she is at terminal end stage CHF, chronic Heart Failure. Her abdomin is round and hard. Bloated. There is no cure for the condition, anyone whos seen this knows how heartbreaking it can be.
   Now, at her age. some say,"Let her die" Or "Put her to sleep, $75+.
CHF is often a long painful death. So I call all local Vet's. They want me to schedule an appointment, $50+, Then they want to examine her, $50+. After that, X-rays, $150+, Bloodwork $50+. all to say either: "She has a tumor and there's little we can do", because of her age...and "we could opperate, but she may not make it thru" $2k+.
BUT if there's no tumor, and it's CHF (Which is OBVIOS) I mean they are professionals and see this stuff everey day, correct? CHF, Untreatble. But w/medication we can slow her death down....for another $50 extra. And maybe we can drian her. $100+ because we will need to do it in stages,,,and it's not healthy to do..but it can relieve some of the pressure on her heart and lungs, meaning she could breath a little easier.
   So, I go the $50 for the examine and get the pills for CHF, They will not hurt her if she has a tumor. But she is getting bad, worse, can hardly breath. They're not helping.
    I call all the vets again and explain, begging that they please release some fluid from her abdomin. I have $118 to my name I will give them. Guess what??...Read above, all over again. THEN, and only then, will they consider "Draining".
    So, I tell them, I am going to stick a pen in her side and let out what fliud I can. They all get upset and rightous, saying,"It could kill her".
   What is wrong with this picture?
Is it I am not giving them $100's for diagnosis, x-rays, and pills for a TERMINAL illness? OR, is it the risk she might die, without them getting $75 to euthanize her?
OR, do they actually care about the dogs health and well being?