kill all the irrelevant people, have your Doctor do it!!

 what have you been doing with yourself? I haven't been very lucky at sleeping...a lot of pain everyone has it, but there is little help for us these days. Covid and opiode being enemies of the Sate

if your not careful you will end up in a rehab/nursing home like "Town and Country" in Lowell where you will definitely contract COVID...I guess? eating and farting is probably all you can do. but at least you have a half change of surviving

  Me?  Ha Haa. doctors are being real shitty. they do not give your prescriptions any more, they fax them to the Pharmacy, so you can't even see how fucked up the refill dates are. Mine is going on 33 days and still nothing (on a 28 day refill)

    also, they send an email for a confirmation you will make the appointment on time, a week early!. question: if the appointment is a 2:30, why must I check in by 2:15...and at what point am I technically late? and then, why do I have to wait in the waiting room for 50 minutes and then in the exam room for another 20 minutes? At what point are THEY late?

  and I predict...yes, I said it...we will have to get a covid test every month two days prior to our appointment!!!

 anything and everything they can do to make it damn near impossible to get treated (poorly).

  rather talk on the on the video, but this works.

you can hate me,  it's easier.

phantom pain lives again

Wednesday, I try my best to be positive while keeping a realistic attitude about my disability, But I am failing, When we discussed a reduction in pain medication, I already done this in the past, several times. But I tried to say to myself, "This time will be different",

    Sadly, it has not. The dosage or Oxcodone (30mg generic, 80% effective) I received was nearly effective, as the medication claims to give 4-6hrs of relief, and at 5 per day, there were many times when the pain took over. Now, being on a reduced dosage and asking it to relieve as well,,, it simply cannot,

  the Methadone, again at 5 perday was effective at keeping the withdrawal effects of opiodes at bay. Now at 4.2 pills per day, or 42mgs, I do get to experience early withdrawal symptoms practically everyday,

    I thought, "an adjustment period will be necessary", The only adjustment I have made is choosing what day and for how many hours I can give pain a good fight. I have now reduced my days to every other day, and for only 4-6hrs. It's very difficult to get all the necessary things a person must do to stay healthy in that short a time frame. 

     Being a "People pleaser" personality I tend to agree to things that I know to be counter-productive and at times even wrong, that is why I decided to take this time to write my thoughts and feelings,

E-36 mobility scooter Brake issue

OK, so this e-36 E-48 etc. three wheel scooter is fast, faster than a wheelchair, BUT If you live in hill country it will try to kill you...If you have one you know exactly what I am talking about. I had mine for a few years and at one point I just wanted to give it away, and they are not cheap, so here's what I did.
        so, what I decided to do is put a temporary kill switch on the handlebars to shut off motor for coasting downhill. release the button and the automatic electric brake will stop you...if that's what you want.

  But who wants to stop, when they simply wish to not go as fast down a hill?

 well, that's what the stock E-36 does. Stop and go all the way down a steep hill, and it almost threw me over the handlebars, or at least slid my ass off the seat. STUPID design...but then again, the hand brakes can barely stop a moving scooter...at my age.

   It is not an electro brake as in a wheelchair, or I could had removed that easily, 

 again, if you could ask an engineer or technician how a person can bypass this "Auto-Brake" system and yes, violate their warantee, I would appreciate it,

I am sure with a little effort you could find me an answer. I'm thinking a wire in the throttle? a different hand throttle? so off doesn't mean brake.

another pain patient .... who cares?

Well, nothing new to read here. as everyone knows, no matter what chronic illness or malady you live with, NO pain doctor will prescribe any opioids...even if they work for you. Yes, you can read all about it. Opioids are bad. Get the facts. It's PROPAGANDA. and if you buy into it, you're a fool.
but what about these pain patients, that until now were treated with some dignity and/or respect? what about them now. unless it's you, those 2% of the population are screwed. watch the suicide rates climb and sure, blame that too on opiods. It's easy!
   I believe this will all come out one day, and everything will be OK...not in ours lives! but maybe by the time they too live in unretractable pain things might change.
 Listen, someone make s a pill that is somewhat effective, let's put an end to that! that will cure everything,
Lucky for them pain patients don't live all that long. I heard of someone else who believed all pain patients (And Jews, and society detriments) should all be extinguished. That worked out great, almost as well as prohibition.
 so how long can the silent suffers stay silent? It's a real problem when some folks speak up, so just shut your mouth and as long as it doesn't effect YOU personally, go along with it all.
It will make your life easier.
    How's that working out for you?

CVS sux

I was just on Discus something like that. wrote a post and could not even post it!
so rather than throw it away,,,and I should cause I am as mad as hell.
here it is for your perusal.
 
I agree with everything I read here so far, I can attest to seeing this crap first hand, I been having problems with my local CVS ever since an Indian pharmacist took over (You know, the stereotypical) dark skinned fella, nobody can understand. anyways' last week he told me he didn't care when my Doctor wrote on the RX about when HE wants it to be filled...he wouldn't do it! Now he's the hero! I went an extra few days in unnecessary increased pain, that was discussed and rectified by my Doctor, so, is that right I ask? Or how about, I cannot even drop off any pain RX within 24hrs of refill date. So, ..... I can drive by and say, "call me when it's ready" (anymore) I have to make an extra trip, 24hrs prior to refill date. If I didn't absolutely need pain relief, I wouldn't even bother with the Bullshit patients are being put thru now days. I have to piss in a cup, like a criminal now! I know I'm not saying anything everyone already knows. It just sucks, and I cannot wish the screaming, debilitating stabbing electrocution, pain away. I am getting to old and weak to keep up with this charade. So what? street drugs? death? I'm thinking alcohol. Poor solution to what already can be dealt with efficiently. as it has for over ten years now! Shame on you Government. for shame.

PLP.

Dr. D. Good visit. I am sorry to report to you after leaving your office, then visiting my Mom at the nursing home, I came home to begin a 17hr marathon of screaming. I just got out of bed now and am so wiped out from exhaustion that I am having a hard time addressing what I need to do. I know I haven't written you every time I have a PLP attack so I thought we should begin recording some sort of record. I did take two extra Oxycodone 15 mg, and three more methadone 10gs during this recent episode, and want to remind you that it is not drug seeking behavior, rather pain relief behavior. again, just a reminder, I have been on  schedule of chronic pain medication, like oxycodone, and had additional strong medication for acute breakthru pain, like hydromorphone, or fentanyl sublingual. Till more recently, a stronger course or chronic pain which did in fact reduce bouts of acute pain, which I did tolerate well. all I can do is relate treatments I been exposed to and their relative effectiveness. And report where I am today. Finally the pain has abated, and left me both physically and emotionally drained. This generally takes 1-2 days to recuperate from. Unless another breakthrough episode begins before that, and lately, that is not out of the realm of my reality. I am sorry to be such a burden of a patient especially in the opioid crisis. It was never my plan. I just am the luckiest guy in the world. Thanks for listening. Just a FYI.

anyone else dying from health care? who are we saving?

as some may know....I been severely disabled at work years back, and since then having been living as best I can with the help of a few good doctors. But that was before our Goverment launched it's new attack on "Opioids" which is comical because it's been drugs that killed people, and just like guns, they are only dangerous in the wrong hands. anyways. I will be gone soon. but Bloggs last forever...I been told. so here's a copy of a letter I just sent to my HMO.

How do I send an attachment? I received a letter from NHHF june 26 2017 stating dr dixit will not be part of nhhf 11/30/2017. since that date I have been calling doctor after doctor and getting nowhere as far as finding a replacement PCP. from NHHF website, and from the yellow pages, and from friends and family, and with many case workers. It seems all case workers can do is provide me with sites that list doctors, and leave it to me to call and secure an interview. Last year it took me, ME alone 6 months to find a doctor, I really could use a little help now that my medical conditions have advanced. I live a lone and despite having a life alert pennant there is no one here to push the button should I become unconscious. For over 10yrs I been doing very well.....but now, with a doctor that is not interested in extra work, or cares for my quality of  life. That has greatly diminished.
  Now I am calling doctors well over an hour away to search for a primary care doctor that will at least treat me as poorly as my current doctor is....let alone as good as previous doctors did.
Please advise, You could prescreen doctors to assure they are in fact participating in NHHF, and are in fact currently accepting new patients, and are able to work with a man who has been literally cut in half and is just trying to have a little dignity in his own inevitable death.
I would appreciate that.

  Let's kill all the disabled! Didn't Hitler say something similar? Hey, I didn't plan to get crushed, and these so called demon opioids only treat pain..... I guess maybe, If I weren't disabled, and I took half the bottle, I might get high? But as for now, I am in screaming pain.
it's bad enough when you can't get more than two or three hours sleep.... at one time, but to be screaming for 6 to 18hrs is just plain cruel.

   I wonder how many people I saved from over-dosing.