PLP.

Dr. D. Good visit. I am sorry to report to you after leaving your office, then visiting my Mom at the nursing home, I came home to begin a 17hr marathon of screaming. I just got out of bed now and am so wiped out from exhaustion that I am having a hard time addressing what I need to do. I know I haven't written you every time I have a PLP attack so I thought we should begin recording some sort of record. I did take two extra Oxycodone 15 mg, and three more methadone 10gs during this recent episode, and want to remind you that it is not drug seeking behavior, rather pain relief behavior. again, just a reminder, I have been on  schedule of chronic pain medication, like oxycodone, and had additional strong medication for acute breakthru pain, like hydromorphone, or fentanyl sublingual. Till more recently, a stronger course or chronic pain which did in fact reduce bouts of acute pain, which I did tolerate well. all I can do is relate treatments I been exposed to and their relative effectiveness. And report where I am today. Finally the pain has abated, and left me both physically and emotionally drained. This generally takes 1-2 days to recuperate from. Unless another breakthrough episode begins before that, and lately, that is not out of the realm of my reality. I am sorry to be such a burden of a patient especially in the opioid crisis. It was never my plan. I just am the luckiest guy in the world. Thanks for listening. Just a FYI.

anyone else dying from health care? who are we saving?

as some may know....I been severely disabled at work years back, and since then having been living as best I can with the help of a few good doctors. But that was before our Goverment launched it's new attack on "Opioids" which is comical because it's been drugs that killed people, and just like guns, they are only dangerous in the wrong hands. anyways. I will be gone soon. but Bloggs last forever...I been told. so here's a copy of a letter I just sent to my HMO.

How do I send an attachment? I received a letter from NHHF june 26 2017 stating dr dixit will not be part of nhhf 11/30/2017. since that date I have been calling doctor after doctor and getting nowhere as far as finding a replacement PCP. from NHHF website, and from the yellow pages, and from friends and family, and with many case workers. It seems all case workers can do is provide me with sites that list doctors, and leave it to me to call and secure an interview. Last year it took me, ME alone 6 months to find a doctor, I really could use a little help now that my medical conditions have advanced. I live a lone and despite having a life alert pennant there is no one here to push the button should I become unconscious. For over 10yrs I been doing very well.....but now, with a doctor that is not interested in extra work, or cares for my quality of  life. That has greatly diminished.
  Now I am calling doctors well over an hour away to search for a primary care doctor that will at least treat me as poorly as my current doctor is....let alone as good as previous doctors did.
Please advise, You could prescreen doctors to assure they are in fact participating in NHHF, and are in fact currently accepting new patients, and are able to work with a man who has been literally cut in half and is just trying to have a little dignity in his own inevitable death.
I would appreciate that.

  Let's kill all the disabled! Didn't Hitler say something similar? Hey, I didn't plan to get crushed, and these so called demon opioids only treat pain..... I guess maybe, If I weren't disabled, and I took half the bottle, I might get high? But as for now, I am in screaming pain.
it's bad enough when you can't get more than two or three hours sleep.... at one time, but to be screaming for 6 to 18hrs is just plain cruel.

   I wonder how many people I saved from over-dosing.

pain before doctors or after?

 tag, you're it!    JK.

Dr dickzit is suppose to be both, but turns out to be neither.

Love it!

and it wasn't easy to get him.

now, I am still looking for both, because.

My PCP has to accept NH WELLSENSE

and my pain provider needs to accept WORKMENS COMP INSURANCE.

but we both know that already, 

for the over past 10yrs....all I ever needed was a pain care doctor.

and before injury...I didn't need any doctor.

but remove pain care..... remove having healthy lifestyle and what you get is

a whole host of other medical maladies. Obesity, diabetes, heart disease, high blood pressure, etc, etc. 

so, to say one is not related to the other is wrong. I would need no doctor if I never got injured, and if pain was managed by a competent pain care specialist, as it has been for over 10yrs...I probably would not need any other doctor. (PCP)

But, being restricted due to unmanaged pain, will cause other medical problems.

that is exactly what has happened. I feel it is part of a lager plan. This continued course of action will surely result in my death. I can feel myself inching toward the grave daily.

so, YES, please assist me in my search for a better pain care provider. There are many more providers in MA. than NH. and all I ever had seen for pain care in MA. was, "Internal Medicine Doctors".  my doctors recommended medications are not the ridiculous dosages I thought they were as I found out thru research. Double what I been prescribed is not uncommon, nor what I need. Or every asked for, My records show I have initiated reductions in medications throughout the years, myself, for fear of bodily damage and long tern effects.

so, How you doing?