Good morning, I hope. (Not for me)
I am up, I been up since 3am with a stupid sharp pain stabbing in my middle toe on the left foot.
It's aggravating at the least and makes my let out a little hoot. I tried to just sleep it off.
Not get up. just roll over because I am so tired, but that only worked for about two hours, then I had to get up.
I had to eat a bowl of cereal because I do not like to take any medication on an empty stomach.
I did just take a Perc and a 8mg Dilliudid. I am still waiting for them to give me enough relief to
go back to bed. I feels like it might be starting to work, but it usually takes almost an hour
for the dilliudid to do anything. I wish there was a quick fix for the pain, so I could just keep it by my bed
side.
Right.
During this pain shit I deal with everyday.
Oh yeah, everyday. I don't know when it will come, how intense it will be, how long it will last.
I know nothing about it.....except it will be here at some point today.
Everyday.
I think part the worse of being disabled is to not
be able to have a schedule, or promise to
be anywhere on time. If I could wake up at the same time everyday, or go to bed the same time, I KNOW
life would be so much better. It's a mental torture to some degree to be awaken or
have to go to bed at different times of day, because of situations beyond your control.
ie: medication side effects, pain, waiting for meds to help, exhaustion from pain,
and even just sitting for prolonged periods of time. it all effects parts of your day, or night.
Imagine being woke with a sharp stab to your body!
that does not end when you open youir eyes. It is NOT a dream.
In fact it doesn't end for hours in some cases, and only lasts a brief hour
in others.
Well, I haven't had a stab or electrical shock feeling in my toes in about a paragraph,
so what time is it now? Must be about 6am, and I have a stupid busy Monday waiting for me.
I have to go back to bed. I like to get about 4 hrs of sleep if possible, except I have a
very important phone call I must make at around 9. I am so F/N tired.
So, I am late? what can they do to me?
Cut off my legs?
Talk to you Later.
